Two Years…

Most emotional abusers are adept at convincing the victim that the abuse is his/her fault. Somehow, the victim is responsible for what happened.

Mental abuse is a blow of death to your self-esteem. Often the first step in leaving the abuse is obtaining counseling to rebuild that esteem.

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Sunglasses

You wear your sunglasses to shade your eyes from the sun so bright,
But for me, they shade a totally different light.
You see and hear a beautiful person, I try very hard,
But hidden deep inside, I am permanently scarred.
You see a twinkle in my eye and a smile on my face,
But hidden deep inside, I’m in a darker place.
A place of hurt and a place of shame,
I was put there by a person who staked his claim.
You see, I wear my sunglasses to hide the agony, to shield the pain,
To cover the tears, realizing there is nothing left to gain.
He said he loved me, I thought is was true,
Maybe he did, but why oh why did he treat me so cruel???
The harsh words, the name calling, the implications to blame,
Oh right, we can’t talk about this right now, it’s time for the pregame.
The despair and the loneliness have gone on too long,
So I’ve decided to stand on my own two feet and be strong.
These feelings of never being good enough I can’t deny, the damage is done,
They are very permanent, and impossible to overcome.
I’ve tried and tried to no avail,
All that’s left is a bitter verbal trail.
Everytime I look in your eyes and try to see myself there,
All I see are my feelings, bruised, scarred, and bare.
I’ve decided I can’t look for myself there anymore.
I can’t bare to see that person there forevermore.
I’ve finally seen the light, this light so true,
But unfortunately, you still don’t have any clue.
So I wear my sunglasses to hide the agony, to shield the pain,
To cover the tears, realizing there is nothing left to gain.
I wish you all of the best, I really do,
But you’ve realized too late that this has brought you to
An uncompromising fate too.
Hopefully, next time you will listen and you will see,
That a prize so grand is NOT for free.
Love her, and adore her, and cherish her name,
Instead of degrading her, and humiliating her,
And verbally beating her down to shame.