Narcissists and Their Children
As a child, my parents let me believe they wanted was best for me. I feel they were sincere. Never once did I think I 
existed to boost their ego or fulfil THEIR dreams. However, I have watched first hand a different type of parenting, a narcissist expecting to BE there for THEM, and THEM only.
It’s interesting to read what I observed, but didn’t fully understand before, a doctor’s view on this kind of parenting.
The Narcissistic parent regards his or her child as a multi-faceted source of Narcissistic Supply. The child is considered and treated as an extension of the narcissist’s personality. It is through the child that the narcissist seeks to settle “open scores” with the world. The child is supposed to realize the unfulfilled grandiose dreams and fantasies of the narcissistic parent.
This “Life by Proxy” can develop in two possible ways: the narcissist can either merge with his child or be ambivalent towards him. The ambivalence is the result of a conflict within the narcissist between his wish to attain his narcissistic goals through the child and his pathological (destructive) envy of the child and his accomplishments.
To ameliorate the unease bred by such emotional ambivalence, the narcissist resorts to micromanaging the child’s life through a myriad of control mechanisms. These can be grouped into: guilt-driven (“I sacrificed my life for you”), dependence-driven (“I need you, I cannot cope without you”), goal-driven (“We have a common goal which we must achieve”) and explicit (“If you do not adhere to my principles, beliefs, ideology, religion or any other set of values, or if you don’t obey my instructions“ I will impose sanctions on you”).
The exercise of control helps to sustain the illusion that the child is a part of the narcissist. Such sustenance calls for extraordinary levels of control (on the part of the parent) and obedience (on the part of the child). The relationship is typically symbiotic and emotionally vicissitudinal and turbulent.
The child fulfils another important narcissistic function that of Narcissistic Supply. There is no denying the implied (though imaginary) immortality in having a child. The early (natural) dependence of the child serves to assuage the fear of abandonment, which is an important driving force in the narcissist’s life. The narcissist tries to perpetuate this dependence, using the aforementioned control mechanisms.
The child is the ultimate Secondary Source of Narcissistic Supply. He is always around, he admires the narcissist, he accumulates and remembers the narcissist’s moments of “glory”, and owing to his wish to be loved he can be extorted into forever giving without ever receiving.
For the narcissist, a child is a dream come true, but only in the most egotistical sense. When the child is perceived as “reneging” on his chief duty (to provide his narcissistic parent with constant supply of adoration) the emotional reaction is harsh and revealing.
It is when the narcissistic parent is disenchanted with his child that we see the true nature of this pathological relationship. The child is totally objectified. The narcissist reacts to a breach in the unwritten contract with wells of aggression and aggressive transformations: contempt, rage, emotional and psychological abuse, and even physical violence. He tries to annihilate the real child (brought to the narcissist’s awareness through the child’s refusal to act as before) and substitute it with the subservient, edifying, former version.
Even understanding it a little better, doesn’t mean it was less than awful to see and live through.
